irish love affair

"may you have warm words
a cold evening.
a full moon on a dark night.
and the road downhill all the
way to your door"
- Irish Blessing (from my irish oatmeal box)

i love oatmeal. plus, there is an oatmeal raisin recipe on the back that i would like to try sometime.

i'm currently going through a book titled, 'simple pleasures' and i'm in love. it's so funny, but its not a novel or anything, just little snippits of the joys of other people. sometimes i find myself laughing because there will be a little passage about something that i can relate to fully, even if its this random stupid 'pleasure'. and oh the recipes, like chocolate chip cookies, nostalgic brownies, ;P

whenever i think of ireland, i just remember how much i love saoirse ronan's specific dialect. it's so lovely. that's the only word i can use to describe it. i discovered her when atonement came out, and then learned that she would be playing the role of susie salmon in one of my favourite novels, 'the lovely bones'. and with peter jackson directing? so amazing ;) but i actually love her the most in a film that she did before any of these i think, called 'i could never be your woman', with michelle pfeiffer and paul rudd.

it's quite sweet, and saoirse sings a bit, but her style really catches me. its totally funky and adorable, but there is a seen where she is trying on pants, and hates her body, and says 'im too fat'. :/ i guess her mom has become so obsessed with trying to stay young while working in the film business, that things sort of rub off.

but i think you should watch it :)

a fresh start

hi there :) whoever is out there...i know there is no one reading this. i started this a long time ago, judging by the post below. it was actually my first blog, before i started any food-related ones, and actually before i ever found blogs of the sort. so this is veteran! sort of...but last night i sort of had this weird feeling, i wanted to write more, and i wanted to write something that was separate from food, recovery, oatmeal ;P well, i know those are a huge part of my life at the moment, and likely will come through somehow with what i write about on here. i guess they're simply a part of me. so it's difficult ever focus on anything else. but, you see, that's what i liked about this. it was about films, fashion. and dreaming...just my biggest goals, hopes, dreams, before i became encased in awful thoughts and habits, i wasn't okay though. i mean, i had been sort of troubled with thoughts and habits, ever since early high school or even prior to that. but it was never as severe and debilitating as it's recently become.

oh, god. see, first post and i've already shared too much...and i've already starting talking about fears, anxiety, eds and all that horrible stuff that should not exist. im quite serious. but i like how no one will likely read this. i know i have few readers on my other blog, but here i have none. and it might remain that way. and i think im okay with that.

well, my name is jennifer. and i like movies, and i love clothing, i need to read, seriously. its a necessity, or i'd likely go insane. probably. im an anxious girl, and i stress and obsess about a lot of things. i wish live were easier but i know that i need to take charge and truly focus on the *right* things if i want to be happy in life. i struggle with a lot of things, but i don't want to get into that right now. because this blog is about dreams, and i would never want to aspire or dream to endure such negative things. they're so frequent in my life already, so why would i want to write about them? silly thing to do, really.

i adore her.

she's probably my favourite actor. and that's difficult because i admire pretty much everyone out there. if i were given an opportunity to work with her...i can't even say it. i mean, that would be terrifying and daunting, but so amazing. she's like a mom :) she could be my second mom, and i'd be happy ;P she's so stunning, she's aging so gracefully and she truly embodies every role she plays. she is real. i want to see the iron lady, but i think i'll see it with my mom. for some reason my dad doesn't want to. now, don't worry, he likes her. but, upon hearing (from some source) that the film focused on thatcher's later life, when she was dying & ill, he decided that it would depress him. hmmph..anyway. i was a bit upset. nevertheless, i will see it for sure. i hope soon. i only know a few things about margaret thatcher, from a third-year american history course that i took i university. it was a class focusing on britain, essentially throughout the nineteen hundreds. and i knew virtually nothing about her at the time.

but she sounded pretty badass.

im going to go organize a few things and attempt to ignore the nightmare inside my head :/ oh, and go watch family guy because i can hear it on the tv, and i never get to watch it. and i love that show by the way. i need it to live. just like books. and american dad.

xoxox love jennifer